How do I cope with being perpetually lost?
I don’t turn to God enough because I’m stubborn and stupid enough to believe I can do it on my own.
Why hasn’t my mistakes slapped me right in the face yet?
so tired of walking in all the wrong directions
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spiritual highs and lows.
They’re normal. Because we’re human and flawed, we have broken relationships with our family, friends, and acquaintances. Because we’re human, we have a broken relationship with God. We go in and out of loving Him, while He remains infinitely the same.
We neglect our time with Him, and He waits for us to return.
We forget that His love for us is enormous. Okay…I’ll stop speaking for everyone and speak alone for myself.
I forget it.
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Alone in a dark apartment. Roommate gone, boyfriend gone. Only temporarily, and yet I sit here fearful of the dark.
I’m sorry I only run to You when I’m in the absolute pit of despair. Or that I don’t come to You enough to grant me peace. You’re the only one who has taken me out of “disastrous” and placed me in “hopeful.”
But thank You for surrounding me with people I love, and who love me in return. Thank You for showing me how to love others irregardless of circumstance.
Had to do some walking, talking, and writing with the big guy upstairs. #faith #struggles (Taken with instagram)
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Today I met with a friend, who is an admin for FOCUS (fellowship of Christian university students) who helped me talk out a lot of my fears this past year, my big struggles, everything in between. He suggested that I just go on a walk. Put away my cell phone, ipod, anything and just walk and talk with God. Tell God everything that’s been on my mind. This is seductive for me. I like walking. I like talking.
So I set off after our little meeting on a walk around. Bible in hand in case I found somewhere to just sit and read. I only walked and talked for about 20-30 ish minutes before I was tempted to go home and write everything out. But it was nice. I was able to clear my mind a bit, get a good idea of what I need to work on as I continue my walk with Christ and come home to write a physical copy of what my mind and heart were saying.
I made a comprehensive list of things that I struggled with/scared me the most. Within that list I had ways to combat the fear and to overcome the struggle. What kinds of things am I needing to give up to God? Where will I need God’s strength the most? In what areas am I being selfish with and not submitting myself completely to Christ?
It’s a lot of those things, but I feel like having this list definitely made me more likely to continue walking, and talking more. A lot of it has to deal with discipline, and a lot of it deals with trusting completely in God.
Right now, I’m content, and I will slowly work up to more of these walking and talking conversations with God. I mean, yes He already knows the depths of my heart and mind. But I like to think He wants us to talk to Him too, since nothing can separate us from His love.
God Heard and responded
I needed conversation, and I got conversation.
I needed prayer, and I had a friend pray with me.
I needed company, and I was kept busy running in and out of the apartment meeting up with different friends, while ending the night with some wine, girlfriends, and Megamind the movie.
Anna’s conversation with me today definitely helped me sort some things out. I have a wonderful God who came here to suffer for our sins. Who am I to not wake up and know that I have been abundantly blessed already in that way?
I get so caught up in school I forget that each morning is a blessing in itself.
And that it is, and that I thank my Heavenly Father for!
"I sought the LORD, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears"
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Psalm 34:4
The recent problem with me is that my fears have overwhelmed me. My fears have manifested physically and the more I feed it, the more it keeps growing. Right now, my foot-fall has caused a lot of anxiety and I need need need God to help me.
There’s just a lot in my head right now and I’ll just keep hoping and trusting, with the very very little amount of faith I have (so many things taking precedence over my trust in God that I have no idea what to say to Him anymore when I try to settle down and pray.
Instead I spend 20-40 minutes crying.
What do I do?
“This Momentary Marriage”. 8 minutes that will change your day.What a beautiful picture of Christ’s love for the Church.
absolutely lovely in all aspects of the word.
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My sister/cousin prayed over me yesterday during our phone conversation.
I had that kind of moment, where I knew and proclaimed that I was a daughter of God’s.
I am His daughter, and I am constantly working at the relationship I have with my Father. There are times I will want to stray, when I want to eat dirt instead of what He has to offer me. There are times when I am angry at Him and I refuse to admit my wrong doings. There are times when I sit in utter awe of all the incredible and beautiful creations of this earth and think…He did this. He really did this.
There are times when I run back into His arms asking for forgiveness. And there are times when He’ll remind me of His greatness, His all-loving nature. Everything.
With the haze of exams, of future worries, I forgot to sit myself down and talk to Him first about it all. He knows my heart, my desires, my intentions before I even speak, but I tell Him anyways.
And again last night knowing, absolutely knowing that I am an lover, worshiper, and follower of Christ, I felt so warm. Protected.
All of these things because I went back to Him and talked.
Note to self: Pray more often, sometimes it’ll be complete silence. Sometimes its a hushed “I love you.” More times I just want His spirit to move my heart and to make me new from the inside out.
As of right now, we’re working out the trust issues, and I’m slowly letting go of the things I held dear and am letting Him take the lead.
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